At the Symphony

Mar. 15th, 2026 07:09 pm
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I did a thing today with friends, and this thing actually involved leaving the house. It also required that I think about what clothes to use to wrap my body.

I went to the symphony, the DSO, where they were doing a show of Danny Elfman's music that he wrote for Tim Burton movies. It was a symphony, but they had a lot of percussionists. They had a contrabass bassoon. They had a theremin too; there were saxophones in the orchestra; They had a full choir with an outstanding child soloist. And they had Danny Elfman singing songs Jack sang in i>The Nightmare Before Christmas, and that was wonderful. Two outstanding performers today – they had a violin soloist who's performed all over the place, done soundtrack work, done a lot of stuff for Danny Elfman including a piece he wrote for her called "Eleven Eleven", and wowed us to the point that she got a standing ovation. The child mentioned earlier is good, no, not only good for a child, good using adult singers with degrees good..

It was fun, though with a macabre edge of course. They did a lot of great stuff, and one of the people I was there with hasn't seen a single one of the movies or films these works were written for – he's going to correct that, and I'm going to search a descriptive video and soundtrack file of Frankenweenie.

Of course I went masked, and since I was out in public around people who don't know all the protocols I wore black sunglasses to beacon my blindness a bit more. I would like to do more things like that, but with the house issues my money is going to be a little bit tight in the same way the Sun is a tad bright and warm.

Building Neurodivergent Community

Mar. 15th, 2026 06:58 pm
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I have been learning more stuff this last year and change about how I have been managing my Discord group - and apparently I DO have social instincts! They just are for operation in neurodivergent-majority environments. So it’s time to put this stuff into words, so that I can start explicitly encouraging people’s community-oriented behaviors of: appreciation for differences; tolerance for mistakes without lacking accountability; negotiation for better treatment between individuals of differing flavors; repair of relationships when things go wrong; gentle separations without acrimonious community-breaking when repair is not possible.

And I learned this just in time for everyone to start fleeing Discord! But I’m going to take the lessons I have developed this knowledge into toward wherever we end up, and ask other people about their good ideas. So:

long post is long )

Me:*gives myself a gold star for doing a hard thing*
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Happy Saturday!

I'm going to be doing a little maintenance today. It will likely cause a tiny interruption of service (specifically for www.dreamwidth.org) on the order of 2-3 minutes while some settings propagate. If you're on a journal page, that should still work throughout!

If it doesn't work, the rollback plan is pretty quick, I'm just toggling a setting on how traffic gets to the site. I'll update this post if something goes wrong, but don't anticipate any interruption to be longer than 10 minutes even in a rollback situation.

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- I changed my DW theme again. This one is kind of reminiscent of my OG Livejournal theme, but with a background I made myself in GIMP. I need to do some more work on my website.

- The NIN show was great! There was some fuckery because Dallas is gonna Dallas (why do people keep trying to start fights in the pit during Hurt? Apparently this is a common occurance?) But Boys Noize rocked as an opening act, and Trent and Atticus still got it. I have a lot of pictures from the show. All of them were taken from the nosebleed section: and therefore, none of them are awesome. Someone uploaded an entire recording of the concert to youtube.

- Continuing the theme of partying like it's 1996, I went with some friends on a pub crawl through Deep Ellum Saturday night. This may partially account for how I feel this week.

- I am not usually this affected by the time change, but this week it is just hitting me like a ton of bricks. I overslept my alarm this morning, something I have not done in three years or more. I think I might be fighting something off.

- I got my physical and bloodwork done, and I need to start really watching my cholesterol. My platelet level is also elevated, but not enough for it to be a cause for alarm yet. But they also want to monitor that pretty closely over the next few months. At least I'm not anemic right now?

- Barry's Economics is *the* Youtube channel to be following right now. He nails the intersection between wealth and late-stage capitalism with all of the factors which enabled the Epstein Web to hijack every aspect of our culture and society. Your moment of Zen: this video, about the super-richs' disconnect from the rest of the human experience. (Just as I was writing something eerily similar in my Tron Ares fanfic, lol.)

- "Someone is actually reading the room." Firefox just got an AI kill switch. From Tech Radar. Though I'm still bouncing back and forth between Vivaldi and Waterfox. I may go back to Firefox if I can disable AI.

- How Epstein’s biggest financial client shaped millennial teen culture.

- I am offically done distro-hopping I tried CachyOS and it's better. Yes, I'm back on Plasma. It was the siren song of Matrix Code live wallpaper that did it. I guess let's see how long this lasts, LOL.

How Many Steps Are We at Now

Mar. 11th, 2026 11:33 am
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So one step forward and two steps back with a resource to maybe move ahead several steps.

I talked to my mortgage company yesterday. They got my records updated, so my name is correct on my mortgage now. I've also updated my insurance company, not that it matters because in this state homeowner's insurance is mandatory and also useless. This is a good thing, even more so now.

I've had a leak in my master half bath for a while. We thought it was a window problem, but after the deluge last night the leak moved from the windowsill to over the toilet. It took me a bit to find where it was and opening the lid solved the drip on the floor problem.

Until about 40 minutes ago, when the entire bathroom ceiling came down – yep, my roommate says it's the whole thing, wall to wall and edge to edge Unexpected, to say the least. The leak is due to roof issues my insurance company refused to fund. Yeah, less than amused I am. Kick them to the curb I want to do.

This chain of events doesn't stop there though; the city I live in has a home repair block grant program – I want the roof dealt with, and the ceiling in the bathroom is also a priority, but if possible I'd love to get the broken slab in the add-on fixed and the tile laid in the kitchen. So this annoying chain of events may work out in the end.

It picked the only day I have something scheduled this week – editing with [personal profile] lanalucy. So its timing kind of sucks, but oh well, better to get it over with. Hope y'all are having a far less eventful day.

Boundaries

Mar. 10th, 2026 01:15 pm
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Speaking to several people over the past 30 years, but nobody likely to stumble across this journal:

Make a list of your boundaries. Read more... )

The state of the bullshit right now.

Mar. 8th, 2026 06:50 pm
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So, one of the reasons that I have been obsessively infodumping about the Epstein stuff is that it's intruding into my escapism in a way I can't tune out, and I hate it.

Because this crap has infected every single aspect of the tech world, due to the fact that Jeffrey Epstein, Steve Bannon, and their other cronies roped techbros into their schemes, and used them to help hijack the society we live in and steer it in the direction that they wanted it to go in.

Like, the fanfic for the Tron franchise I am working on right now concerns two rival tech companies. And I can't work on it or even think about it without thinking about the cancer and the rot that is going on currently in real life tech culture.

Like yeah, I can pretend that there isn't anyone like Jeffrey Epstein in the Tron Universe, and that none of that horrible shit happened, and tech in this fictional world evolved along very different lines: and this is obviously the way I *should* actually be handling it. Because there is not an IGE or a Microsoft or a Starlink or Tesla or a META: There's Encom and Dillinger Systems.

But like...the villain of the last movie is a whole techbro, borrowing from a stereotype that is only familiar to us because of how prominent it has become in real life over the past decade or so, thanks mostly to the mechanizations of the worst people.

It's hard for me to write this now without considering everything that has been revealed about the Epstein Web's malign influence over every aspect of the tech world over the past 20 years. Because a lot of the reason we are where we are right now - in regards to AI and "Web 3," is because of them. Just ignoring it feels disingenuous. It feels like whitewashing. Even though: of course technology in the Tron universe progressed along very different lines, because real, actual AI (not the fake bullshit slop we have now) and digitizing actual real-world matter into the computer have existed since 1982 in this timeline. This is science fiction, happening in a world that still feels very much like our own. I mean, the thing I tell newcomers to the Tron franchise is: "imagine if the Technological Singularity happened in 1982, but only a few people were aware of it, or noticed."

BUT, and a youtuber called attention to this aspect of the latest Tron movie without realizing that this is what he was doing: Eve Kim, the character portrayed by Greta Lee in the latest film, is basically Buckaroo Banzai, complete with her own stalwart band of comrades who are the Tron universe's equivalent of Buckaroo Banzai's own Hong Kong Cavaliers. She is a globetrotting hacker gamer biker CEO of a tech company. And while some dorks were of course screaming "Mary Sue!" there is no way as a Buckaroo Banzai fan that I can't just pick this up and run with it, it's perfect.

And THIS is why the Seth Flores character didn't grate on me the way he did on some people in the audience: he's kind of the equivalent of Perfect Tommy and New Jersey at once? And holy shit, the "It's cowboy time" line from the character Ajay Singh: HE'S RAWHIDE. (Or New Jersey?) Holy hell, it's THEM in another universe and incarnation.

And YES this makes the titular Ares the equivalent of Penny Priddy. Just try to get that image out of your mind once it's popped in there. and YES, I know how all of this sounds in light of Jared Leto's involvement in the Tron Ares film, and the allegations against him. (I fucking hate this timeline.)

Anyway my fix for that during the time the film was in theaters was to just imagine what the movie would have been like if the titular Ares had been played by Keanu Reeves instead. (Because of course the Billionaire Techbro would want to make his Supersolider look like John Wick.) That, or Trent Reznor; mainly because of the soundtrack. Some of the fanart I have seen of peoples' fancasting of Trent Reznor as Ares is phenomenal. I have become a fan of the "Young Trent Reznor as Ares" idea since I first saw it, but especially since the remix album of the OST dropped last week, and then I went and saw NIN live in concert.

EDIT:But this all just dovetails back into the reality that the harm of women in children is inextricably woven into the creation media designed to be art, designed to entertain us, due to it being normalized, systemic, and endemic in our culture. Many of the artists whose creations got us through the 2000s and 2010s have turned out to be predators. The only real exception I can think of is the late David Lynch, who was actively trying to alert us that it was going on, through the creation of his own art and media.

And I can't help but wonder what a Tron movie by David Lynch would have been like.

IDK chat, I'm going to have to figure this out. I mean, I'm going to write it regardless. But yeah.

Hell, maybe in this timeline, Livejournal and Myspace are still around. I think it's a lot more fun to imagine a timeline that doesn't involve any of the current horrors, even if it does feel dishonest somehow.

The Orville and Stuff

Mar. 6th, 2026 03:31 pm
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Prepare to cheer: Seth Macfarlane has the fourth season of The Orville written; it's down to scheduling, with his the thorniest. The full cast is up for it too. I'm pleased that a smart science fiction show with great characters and a trans friendly story history is returning after long hiatus.

The writing is moving again, and the current story is keeping my attention well enough that I'm making steady progress on it. I'm thinking hard in the direction of doing a 30 day challenge with my plot points for Love Meme? 3 – Ready, Set, Inaction.

The Déjà vu trilogy is out of editing. I'm taking beta readers for it now. I think of it as a hard science fiction story, so the math and science is based on what we know. Arthur C. Clarke said that hard science fiction can have one impossible thing in it and remain science fiction, and I think this meets that criterion. I've got lots of other stuff for beta readers too, if anyone's interested in catching my stuff. I tend to be genre agnostic, so the lines, if they exist at all, are often blurry. I also don't do trope-based plotlines or hew to genre story arcs (this is why the Love Meme? series isn't Romance, they're classic love stories) so those who like things that don't telegraph the ending early may enjoy my writing.

Other than that, things are grinding along like they do. My three score celebration went unnoticed by most of the people I know – thanks to the four people who called and the one who emailed. I wondered for many years how much VisageTome inflated awareness of it, and I figured it was around what I got this time around; it's one of the "features" of web 2.0 social media—it gives its merchandise inflated indications of their influence and social group size. I'm more comfortable knowing what the real situation is; yeah, that stuff feeds an extrovert in some ways, but physical proximity is its own reward.

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Mar. 4th, 2026 03:01 pm
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I heard the terrible news about [personal profile] minoanmiss last night, and I want to punch entropy in its face about it. But entropy doesn’t have a face, so we’re all kinda screwed. My heart goes out to her wonderful loved ones, and to the neighbors who her life had touched for the better. I hope she gets to donate her organs to others to live on, especially as doing so will hopefully piss off her parents (who richly deserve such) one last time.


I have been orbitally bombarding the ulcer with famotidine, Omeprazole, and trying to let go of stress once an hour. It seems to be doing some good? And I found some perfume samples on clearance from the December holidays at CVS, so I am also scent stimming intermittently.

I have a tiny, mild headache right now, so I’m studying for the jurisprudence exam and getting ready to take the test and do taxes tomorrow.
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Part One
Part Two
Part Three
Part Four
Content warnings for everything awful, obviously.

EDIT: More on the origins of 4chan, and IGE and Steve Bannon's connection to 4Chan, /pol/, and the Epstein Web's influence over the culture wars.

It really does come down to these things: Jeffrey Epstein was angry about being very mildly punished and criticized for victimizing children and women back in 2007-2008. And over the next two decades, he threw all of his money, influence, and connections at the goal of hijacking society and turning it into a place in which his kind of person would be protected and celebrated, instead of held accountable for their crimes. And to do this, he and his cronies (including Steve Bannon) exercised a lot of influence over the late 2000s-early 2010s internet via the Gamergate/"Redpill" movement, and the culture wars that followed. Nearly 20 years later, he has largely succeeded: and all of this led to the election and elevation of Donald Trump.

Gamergate was about Steve Bannon and Jeffrey Epstein harnessing hatred towards women and using it for their own ends, and making girls and women shut up. To make them afraid to speak up about victimization and being mistreated. Qanon was a psyop employed to muddy the waters, and make anyone who talked about conspiracies involving child trafficking sound like a looney conspiracy theorist.

They influenced the rise of crypto to make it easier to launder money, and to be able to conduct transactions in a manner not beholden to the authorities and institutions that govern regular currency - the same authorities and institutions that chastised Jeffrey Epstein in 2007-2008 (and should/could have stopped him cold.) Everything they did was to warp our society into something that would normalize, celebrate, and protect people like them from those of us who would dare try to hold them accountable for their horrific actions.

Even the way the drops are being done is to normalize the acts which were being committed, and to lessen the effect they should be having on people (disgust, horror.) Like they're doing the drops to say "shut up libs, we released the files," but phrasing it and framing it in such a way that people don't realize the horror of what is actually being revealed, get bored, and tune it out. We can't allow this to happen. The literal future of the world depends on whether or not we can finally shut these assholes down for good.

Are headache noonwraiths real?

Mar. 2nd, 2026 04:34 pm
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Currently, I have what is quite possibly a migraine? My brain feels like my cognition is normal but pain level is bad, light is more stabby than usual, sound is nauseating. Also since I’ve been having so many headaches, lately, I have been taking too many NSAIDs and have apparently given myself another stomach ulcer. So in all I’m doing great. /s 😅😩😣

I’m nearly done with the clinical volunteer hours for school, I’ll be done with those hopefully by next Saturday. On Friday I passed the national massage exam, the MBLEx, so now I just need to get the legislative exam taken care of before my paperwork is together for getting licensed in this state. And I would be studying for legislative test right now … if I didn’t have such an awful headache.

I just took the last of the Ubrelvy and I’m about to go take an anti-emetic bc that is feeling very necessary all of a sudden. This morning I started the two weeks of Omeprazole/stomach acid reducer pills that will help heal the ulcer (eventually). I just have to eat a fair amount of bread between now and the hypothetical day when my stomach will be healed up.

Wish me strength in the fight against the headache spirits, I guess. And for the ulcer to go the fuck away.
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