It's Back...
Dec. 30th, 2008 05:02 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nyykiAll things come in cycles. Some cycles can be severe, and people take medication for them, while others aren't so overwhelming.
Usually I have two low spots in a given year. The first is around mid-February, for obvious reasons, and the other is in mid-November, as I remember Josi's time of the big sleep. But I've been lucky, as the last couple of years it hasn't been so bad in February, and this last November was not too rough either. But I've been feeling a bit down for the last two days, as I'm starting to drift into that black funk that comes around from time to time. I've lost the drive to work in the studio, I don't want to talk to anyone, and I'm getting the inclination to sleep a lot. Also, I'm not eating much, and what I'm eating is all convenience food -- Things that are fast and easy with no real prep time, as I just can't be bothered with trivialities like food.
Not sure what brought it on this time, but I'm hoping it's short lived. I do know this -- I'm getting rather dissatisfied with certain things in my life, especially things relating to other people and matters of unreliability. I'm getting tired of people coming to me when they want something but not being there when I ask them for something, and of broken promises. I'm also getting tired of people offering to help out with something, then either flaking out on me or messing things up and acting like I should be grateful they helped me at all. And I'm going to end this journal entry before I go off on a serious rant, as no one really cares to hear me vent anyway -- that's something reserved for people you care about, and I feel rather un-cared for and unloved at the current moment.
Usually I have two low spots in a given year. The first is around mid-February, for obvious reasons, and the other is in mid-November, as I remember Josi's time of the big sleep. But I've been lucky, as the last couple of years it hasn't been so bad in February, and this last November was not too rough either. But I've been feeling a bit down for the last two days, as I'm starting to drift into that black funk that comes around from time to time. I've lost the drive to work in the studio, I don't want to talk to anyone, and I'm getting the inclination to sleep a lot. Also, I'm not eating much, and what I'm eating is all convenience food -- Things that are fast and easy with no real prep time, as I just can't be bothered with trivialities like food.
Not sure what brought it on this time, but I'm hoping it's short lived. I do know this -- I'm getting rather dissatisfied with certain things in my life, especially things relating to other people and matters of unreliability. I'm getting tired of people coming to me when they want something but not being there when I ask them for something, and of broken promises. I'm also getting tired of people offering to help out with something, then either flaking out on me or messing things up and acting like I should be grateful they helped me at all. And I'm going to end this journal entry before I go off on a serious rant, as no one really cares to hear me vent anyway -- that's something reserved for people you care about, and I feel rather un-cared for and unloved at the current moment.
