Maybe She's all the way Gone

[nyyki]

An aphorism says that the opposite of love isn't hate, it's indifference.

I took no note of April 8th on Wednesday, and its significance to me, until yesterday and my reaction was more "wow, that fifteen year anniversary passed," with no emotional connection at all. I don't feel good about the fifteen year silence in my life, but that the day no longer evokes depression and reenactments of what I was put through I'm pleased.

On to the twenty-first, and that'll be an easy one to remember because I've got an infusion that day.

Comments

[extraarcha]

The only reason to remember bad things and times is to be able to see them heading our way again.
It things evoke the memories, that is likely due to some unresolved item(s). Sometimes it just means we haven't managed to move on. Not everything is resolvable. Like a scraped knee, figure out how not to do that thing again, but we still have to wait for healing to lose any scabs.
I enlisted in the Army, years ago and remember my feelings about that ... but i got out and have been much better about things i've chosen to join ever since.

Healing happens if we let it.
Wishing you all the healing you need.

[nyyki]

Thanks. Some traumas take a while to fade, and when someone expends effort to make things far more traumatic than it needs to be that can deepen the damage. Or as I put it in one of my novels, spoken by a woman who has a bad relationship history when she's talking to her best friend and going down the list of what her ex-lovers did to her, "Happy feelings don't leave scars and open wounds."

[numb3r_5ev3n]

Here's to time healing all wounds.

[nyyki]

Thanks. I don't know if it can heal all of them, but this one seems to be far less an issue. And next up is a great memory's anniversary.